August 20th, 2023
running away from your problem doesnt solve it, same thing as moving to a better country. it doesn't make your depression magically disappear.
just today that i realized my friend, who're currently in germany for her studies, deactivated her instagram account, which she used to post a lot about her having fun. i like her post because it clearly display how she didnt give a damn about what people think of her. she's the embodiment of 'life is about having fun' and i agree with that. even if her laughter sometimes feels like a force, but at least her followers know she's having fun.
when it comes to her, people who's not close to her might think she's the internet term of 'pick me'. but i think she's cool. i like people who show that instagram post isnt as scary as they said. likes doesnt matter anymore. if everyone had this mindset, we would all be happy again, and instagram can be at its peak again. i made this strict rule for my feed that it only has single picture in one post. no particular reason, just want to make my feed looks like 'it still belongs in 2014'. which also from others perspective, must have look like i have the most boring post ever. but I DONT CARE. i want to shitpost whenever i like. i want to post a picture of a wall and get at least 20 likes. i hope people realize that its embarassing if they're overthinking about people's post on social media.
posting on instagram isnt fun anymore. even if i post a picture of my face, i'd get like 36 likes. thats so SAD. i used to have 80 likes of pic of calum hood. mark zuckerberg should really make insta 2014 again or else he'll never find peace. Threads doesn't work like he intended because the guilt of messing up IG with ads and shops. you reap what you sow
anyway, back on my friend. before this, i did saw she shared on status about a conversation between her and a friend back in malaysia. her friend gave her motivational paragraph about depression or sumn. i dont know much, i didnt check people's status. but i believe she's been talking about the stress she endured in germany.
oh well that's bound to happen. i've predicted this before, even told it on her face that im not sure about studying in germany (which at the time i was covering up my sadness about the alevel result). but it's slowly showing its truth, i guess
regardless, i hope you're doing okay, wherever you are. you're still my friend no matter what
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